So, I started taking the Celexa (10 mg, if anyone is interested in details, and what the doc told me is a very small dose) daily on Saturday. The doctor had told me that it might take several weeks for it to "kick in", which is why she had given me the Zanax (.25 mg) to take if I got overwhelmed in the meantime.
On Sunday, I woke up with the old brain just a-churning, so I thought I'd take a Zanax, just to see if it would calm me down. It calmed me so far down, in fact, that I just wanted to sleep all day, but I had a lot of stuff to get done and managed to stay awake. I got no type of "high" whatever; just felt kind of peaceful. And sleepy. And it did "turn down" my thoughts.
Went to work today, and blahblahblah drama, so an hour before the boss was scheduled to call, I took half a Zanax. (yeah, a regular pill-popper, that's me.) It was enough to calm me down, but not enough to knock me out, and I was able to handle a conversation with the boss (about the Project from Hell, don't even get me started) without panicking or wanting to pass out. I was able to perform competently and without the overwhelming dread that has dogged my recent days.
So! Waiting for the Celexa to kick in, taking the Zanax as a stop-gap (and yes, I know that both are habit-forming drugs which iare in no way, shape or form to be taken long-term or in excess), and hoping for the best.
I'll keep you posted! And thank you for your patience as I continue on my quest for equilibrium.